We all miss you sis

Don't worry sis,

your kids are fine.

They are living their life,

the way you want them to.

Don't worry sis,

your eldest just started working.

She'll learn how to survive,

I'm sure.

Don't worry sis,

your second one will be a teacher.

I'm sure, he'll enjoy it

just like you.

Don't worry sis,

your last one is coping well.

He is missing you

but he'll manage it.

I'm sure.

I am fine too sis.

I quit smoking,

not for long but I tried...

Insya-allah! I will go on my journey,

the one you didn't manage to go.

We miss you sis!

Al-fatihah!

Dad

Quietness,

is best to describe you.

Your smile,

are warmth, sweet and tender.

Soften me down.

You watched my every steps

to see me fall and arise again.

I never cried,

in front of you.

You guide me

and never pushed me.

You teach me

but never forced me.

Quietness,

is best to describe you.

Quiteness,

I found my solace.

Al-fatihah!

Mama

It's been a while,

you have not touched my hair.

It's been a while,

you have not asked where did I go last night.

It's really been a while,

we have not seen each other.

I have a few white hairs now mother.

I used to pluck a few for you, remember?

I didn't want to pluck mine out,

hoping it will make me more distinguished.

I was home early last night,

didn't know where to go.

Wish you were here to chit chat,

like we used to do.

Every time I missed you,

I feel you touch me.

Everytime I longed for you

I feel you are with me.

Al-fatihah!

forgive me!

I want to see things differently,

but i have not seen much, really.

I may speak easily,

but not saying much, really.

Sometimes, I hear you dearly,

and at times, I am lost completely.

What's wrong with me?

(do forgive me, please!)

Come rain, no shine.

It's been a while,
i have forgotten to smile.
it's been a while,
that i have lived a lie.

I was tired and uninspired,
not trusting myself.

It was gone,
not long after you've gone.
Darkness over my head,
still following me everywhere.
It causes rain in my eyes,
blocking my view,
and floods in my heart...

Where do I go from here?